Take A BOW.. 2008

10 moments I had not forgotten in 2008
- getting down & dirrty at BB, while celebrating new year's eve opening 2008
- street style on the runway
- slackin with fabulous + smexy roomates (syaz, bana, sunat n waras)
- pop's car i'd scratched out indecisively
- loves, luxury n lust comes together but in shortly
- backstabbing episodes from beasties to enemies
- excellent presentation of on the last IS's class
- newborn baby 'Izzat Ryan' the little nephew
- fraternized with somebody's beau (Fendi)
- burglary happened at my crib

10 tracks i jigged to
- " Little Miss Obssesive " " Ashlee Simpson"
- " Closer " "Neyo"
- " Forever " " Chris Brown "
- " Takkan Terkejar " " Khadeeja "
- " I Hate This Part " " Pussycat Dolls "
- " Cinta Ini Membunuhku " " D'Masive "
- " Read My Mind " " The Killers "
- " Terimakasih Cinta " " Afgan "
- " Cinta Dalam Hati " " Ungu "
- " Build To Last " " Melee "

10 wardrobe loved!
- " ripcurl "
- topman " fleece "
- skinny / emokid
- LIME green top
- shades
- Graniph "top" cardigan
- Ted Baker
- Zara for Men
- Pull and Bear
- Milk got you drunk T's

10 BEST chilled out spot
- Vivo City (Harbour Front)
- IKEA Alesandra Rd
- Tampines
- City Square JB
- The Garden KL
- Pavilion KL
- Bugis Junction
- Meldrum Walk
- Southern City
- The Zone, Dolce

10 things i wish for 2009
- the slow death & shutter shades
- justice lives in malaysia
- people are will not dressing like hippies
- no more reckon sick people
- more awesome music and fashion whored
- wanna be loved & appreciated
- my up coming graduation day
- better health without illness
- bad things turn into good things
- economic prosperity

*MOS*

Have u ever tried a tasty hamburgers from the MOs Burgers dine outlet? well its a good news for hamburgers lover out there i pledgely recommend your lunchtime to have these at any Mos restaurant near u.

My recent visit where i was ordered one cheeseburger and hamburger and one grilled blackpepper burger, together with fries

and nugget. and indulged with a zasty soft apple combined with soda drinks.

it may seem ordinary meals that u'll find at any ordinary fastfood counters but the taste of MOs burger just perfect for the food lovers. the specialties are the meat is soo tangy and and just the bun is soft buttered taste that will make an utterly repeat visit. perhaps i just like the way it been packaged though.. its handy and easy to get yumm onto my mouth without any spilled chillies or ketchup all over.

well.. as for me i give two thumbs up for the tasty bites and make my day full with hamburgers!!

if i was your boyfriend

"If I was your boyfriend"

how many times a day would you kiss me?

How many times a day would you f**k me?
would we f**k everyday?

how many times a day would you just want to hold me?

would you take me places?

would you love me?

if we went out on a date would u have me pay for it?

would you take me anywhere special?

If I was sick... what would you do?

If one a my friends tried to get with you what would you do?
would u tell me?

would u listen to all my problems and help me solve them?

Would u introduce me to your mom/dad?

Would you care about what i wore when we out ?

Would you go to the Club with me?

If your friend tried to get at me what would you do?

If someone tried to fight with me infront of you what would you do?

If a girl/guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would u do?

If i cheated on you would you take me back?

Would u give me your myspace password?

If i gave you mine would you read all my mail?

If i said i loved you would you say it back?

if you dont repost this you will not be in a relationship for a year!

If your a guy repost this with, "If I was your boyfriend?"

if ur a girl re post with, "If I Was Your Girlfriend?"

.... Aidiladha story

yesterday was " Hari raya Haji " the rain drippled all the way from morning to night.. make the day feel so wet and soak..
but what i mostly do love is the celebration loaded with much and much of foods..
eventhough it was raining.
i woke up quite early becos awakened by my dad. He'd asked me to go to the mosque and pray for the Aidil Adha prayer.
Hmm but i didnt.
i did got myself done early the rain restricted me from going out to the mosque..
ngeee how sinfully was i am to miss out the once a year prayer in purposely..

so there is no simple tahlil is made like usually does after the prayer is over. becos this saturday my home will make a Kenduri Arwah or tahlil, and potong jambol ceremony for my lil nephew.
so i think its unnecessary to make again and again ceremony.

ow..
i gottago...
see ya later..

ARGHHHHHHH!!!

Im not soo in the mood aite now!

how could i happily to tell this that something terrible and misery had crossed over my life!

what we scared is definitely happening..

news that

we've been robbed at my cribs last night!!

and hell lotta stuff (handphones, wallet, PDA, rings etc)and cash been carried away by this fuckng bullshit group!

it was seizing up while all the siblings and p'ple were sleeping and only notice after i heard screamin from my sista when finding out her phones were gone

HELL yeah for u fucker thieves!

If i were able to find u i swear to God i will clearly kill u lyke a bloody hell pig chopped onto chainsaw till flesh to bones left.

u are not human instead and u didn't deserve to get any chance at all to stay in this piece of earth!!

Instead i'd be rather pray if u gonna receive the immediate judgement and die with fame of shamefulness!!!

Get lost to you by using the return u get from the robbed items freely!

Becosz u were fuckin dumbshit and ur life is contributing continuity of sins endless as far u use that dirrty proceed!!

get ur own space for u dirrty slimy faggot to repent shit!!

where i bet u'll find hard to be accepted!

As only hell is da best place for u disregard!!!

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

p/s: Lord thx for no one pays injured or severed illness while the robbery happened.

Madness

Skyeller joy's of life is always being eroded with some sorts of mistake and surprise. This cud be a lil bit way too sarcastic entries. i never found myself so edgy and reckless when at the time i cope with condition hard to tell. Anger and envies pass and by together paired with lust! you know and it already begun the fight Ky.vs.XX and i'm stuck nowhere in the middle of solvency.

I never take anything too seriously but this matter claimed me to be more concern as far that i should have..

Ok, so less talk and no more drama to begin heres the story, let me summed up by saying i got a lil cat and dog fight with this peep because of .

...

XX : I ad problem,

Me : prob. whut? honey?

XX : I just like terhegeh2 kat sorg mamat ne. tp die jual mahal sgt kat I.

Me : Ow is that da problem? u have crush 2 someone?

XX : Yup (nodded)

Me : Who is it? Can i see him?

(he took off his phone and showed to me the pixtha of the boy)

Me : He so adorable n hot! kenalkan kat i nanti..

XX : Sure i will.. tp jgn u try nak celabet plak nanti ea..

Me : Huhu xde lah.. (big grin)



So at one fine day when i was visiting KL, I finally met the guy in person. Yup hes got look and charming. He's got to be lot of sense humour and and i bet lucky to whoever can hook him up. But in my point of view, XX is so not suit to this guy when they're paired together it just funny amusement. They dont even matched if they become a couple. But i just only speak quietly n my mind n not trying let him dissapointed if i say promptly.



Call ringin..

Me : Helooooo

XX : Honey..!! huhu sob..sob

Me : Ow, y??? nape col ak mlm2 bute ni? x tido lg ke?

XX : sob..sob

Me : Are you crying dear?

XX : sob..sob.. yes

Me : Why ne? (awake from the bed & turn on the light) what happened to you?

XX : I dimalukan dpn org rmi.. n i felt like stooopid to let him..

Me : Who? is that him?

XX : Yah..!! he just make fun of me!!! ARghhhh siyalll!!!

Me : Sabar2... cite kat ak dr awal.. skang ko katne?



so i listened the story that night from beginning to and end where it mixed up with his tear sound and uncalm, poor little skeez XX just been dumped by him and not less that that he was been humiliated by somekind of jerk!! Hell i dont even realize that the guy's behaviour is annoying and obnoxious as that despite he is brutally hearthrob..



Me : Let me teach him.

XX : Camaner? Nop la better u back off i dun wan 2 cause u any trouble..

Me : I juz want to help.. mmg f**k jantan tu!

XX : Nop let me solve this thing myself,

Me : But inform me if u need my help



3 weeks after,

Me : What again?

XX : 2day is my happiest day.

Me : Nape ko ni?? mcm tebiat jek sewel ker?

XX : Ko mst x caye kan, everything was fine now.

Me : Helo...Ak blur la tetibe col ak ckp camni.. (sigh..again and again)

XX : Td ak akhirnye dpt date ngan die..

Me : Ha! die tue sape?

XX : Mamat yg aku chentakan tu la

Me : (WTF) Are u fucking seriouuusss??????

XX : Ak tga seronok giler ni kak! ak mcm nak kembalikan detik2 indah td tu.

Me : Hmm ye latu.. (shocked) camne ley jdk camtu

XX : Camni mula2....

And i listen to his conversation while my mouth was gawping entirely.

XX : Btw die tanye i ble kwn u nak dtg cni lg?

Me : Sape?

XX : U la sundal!!! Die igt kat u, i dgr pun sentap jap. Makan ati tau die tnye psl u

Me : God really mcm ne die igt kat aku?? Ak x penah berbual pon ngan die.

XX : Ntah, then ak suh die tukar topic la then blablabla



Time goes by, so slowly and at sudden i felt like.



Me : Honey nanti i nak nek KL la.

XX : Datangla rindu sgt kat ko!

Me : Nanti i sampai i bgtau u bile?

XX : Yah itz ok better pas i abes kelas lor, if i were free nanti i fetch u kat Pudu eh.

Me : Really.. Hmm iye jek tp x pena pon.

XX : Ala kalu i busy pon u kan dah biase, u know where the direction 2 my homestay aite?



(Puduraya, KL)

Ow where is this shit? He said wanna fetch me as soon i got in here, where has he been? [then my mailbox was ringing.]

open new message received, from: XX [Sorry ak da kat kg now, x dpt amek ko, emrgency]

ow... Ok then what happened to him? whatever i got my mission here. so i walk straight up away looking for the exit and get out from this crowded hell place. Step to the nearest train station Plaza Rakyat the building beside the Pudu to buy the train ticket for my next destination. It was a date between me and one of my frenzy that i know from internet...
we've been to so many place from PS, to KLCC, and from KLCC to BB st8 away send me home.

....

Next day, i got no plan to do and to spruce perhaps the rain was pouring begining from the morning until to dusk. theres no one living there at the moment bcos all of them were gone to classes so i'm alone and just sat back and foolish myself. Without any entertainment for sake of my lil mp3 from my phone only. UHh...

....

(Later)
i got a text from my other housemate Syaz here it said " Kay, Fendi ajak jumpe mlm ne.. jom XX xde ne!"
what and i replied slightly " Tol ke!! kew saje propaganda ko!"
3 mis later i got respons " iyeh benci aku! bile ak ckp ko nak dtg lju jek die tnye ko, nak ajk lepak ar! bencinyew"
my eyes shine! god i don even think he would say that.. diz is ma chance " OK what time!"
" Lps aku blek keje, die segan kalu 2 org jek, pas2 kite grak mkn sekali"

...

i just being like a lil devil when the thorn was appearing at sudden over my head. huhu nice beef will come around DUH!
and i forgot that he is belong to someone who is my closefriend.. XX so? and at 11ish sharp, Syaz just got back from work and with immediate rush takin his bath. I silently slogging to the balcony waiting for Fendi to arrive. (ting tong)
owh and he has jjust arrived!Gosh plz make sure that my ace is ok and there's no blemishes and i look like darling huhu.

...

So the date was quite dull and awkward at first, but hell yeah i engross to show the real person i are that totally loud and giggly all time an it shown right away at the table. I mean im not control everything the interference was slightly contempted even both of them are seemed to be reluctantly speechless. I guess everything was all right right guys...?!**

it wasnt end up like that, After 3 of us finished our meals and full i invite fendi to continue our chatting at our place. At first he's a lil bit cosy and shy but after we non-stop ask him nicely he's finally agreed.
and guess what happens.
i bet u all know what was exactly happened last night!
DUH
i dont want to make it clearly, i guess u all know! where is it a mistake or an accident?

xoxoxoxoxo
<3

That nyte i impromptu transformed myself to become a bitchiest slut ever on earth by seducing somebody's affair.. well that's not just me only becos Syaz getting involve with this also. Moreover Fendi gave us spotlight and let it be. So we're in the situation which is uncontrollable and lusty though.

...

And i felt really better, awwwghh but what did i done!

...

2 days after
The bedstory is rapidly spread to the XX's information. Later i got a text message from XX.
which harshly said " Amboi ko, berani ye ko rampas laki ak.. m** dgn laki ak..dasar pon*** a****g -tut"

ouch!
and i juzt let him go without reply anything. He must be brutally mad at me now!

so heres the deal, ive been let you know all of the way from a to z, you got to be better judges.. Am i reALLY a worst slut???

Oh Father

That morning...
i woke up quite early,
didnt manage to catch with my breakfast
put all my clothes onto my bag..
(silent mode)
*hell* i never been like in sort of reckless condition
papa asked where i want to go?
i replied " Batu Pahat"
AaM
He's willingly to send me to bus station,
owh thank you, and later we're arriving,
without any money given right away and with my empty stomache..
i buy the ticket..

Not in the mood

Final examination really had begun!
im so afraid! at the sake of god..
claiming myself to be better achiever
to face 6 papers overall will cut my nerves apparently
studying here!
it just exhelarates me!
but the time goes by and i'll be departed from here at last..
sooner
because
my 6th sem,
Last Sem..

(roll over baby!!!!)

mood: jewled

Fed up!

Yesterday, was the somekind of fuckest rare day!

i met my long time no see LMFO beastie!! Dd the mak hayam from uitm larkin

all day long with her
it was a lil bit smoke, drunk and sore

i drove my scratched car toward south to fetch him at the bus stop at the end of 2ish then went to angsana slacking around after been long time we were not catch up each other...

we slacked at the bowling alley available there at the highest level of the building and played couple games together where i admit i so am not good wit it!

Its been interesting, as the intense and unexcitement had begun i kinda like the underdog

it just suck where the ball i thrown did not hit the pins instead it derived all way to drain irritacy grrr goddammit!!!

OMG!!

(heaving some hugh)

*sigh*

*grinned*

*sigh*

busting some air! There just bucket of hunks playing bowling too and my thought reckon that they were watching me the hottest dude of folly throw some balls at the edge of recklessness.. and these families who were slacking around among the crowd too because today is Diwali Day!

The ball swiveled not hit the last damn pins again!!!

*grunt*

I dunno where the hell ideas sayin' bowling is such ecstacy where most people are soared and addicted to it, for me it sucks

so the playing ended up after i was stop interfering and DD continued his excitement by rolling the game over and over! 3 times shit game..

i knew he is a good bowler and i am a sucker! after i get bored i went to back to had some ciggarette..

guess what there is also others ushers were there too..

they're only 14 surprised2x its like unexpected after they told me the truth about their age and agenda..

so while we were tossin up some marlboro filter there just a couple chats started by them..

*snort*

In the end they just really wanted to paw my rokok instead!

WELL.. WELL..WELL

THx FUCK for that!

Raya

Before i forgot..

Heres the goddessss photo of me and my family during the Hari Raya 2008, this year

Baby Ryan

Last thursday i was noticed by my family the news about my 2nd sista who had already delivered her first child..Is it?? Woaa i thought she will deliver in this middle of the month.. very well and ok so the babyboy named Muhammad Izzat Ryan

Lets take a look at him!

i was brutally excited to hear bout the newborn baby!...

*sigh*... bcoss at the time i was in campus as was i getting immediate i got my phone n calling my mum to confirm the infos.. well my mum said shes been visited her at east singapore via car with suraya, and arrived about 3 ish in the evening she then accompany my sista a whole night at the Kandang Kerbau Hospital around at Novena.

i said, u got 2 be excited mom to endowed ur 2nd grandson.. *guffaw*

here is the babys photos i took from Ryan's myspace.. WTF ryan got myspace seh!!!

The baby soo lovely, gemok and cute!!! I cant wait to go back to kiss and hug him..

Then it comes Raya...

Fellas....

the day after tomorrow all the muslims will celebrate Eid of Ramadhan or in Malaysia a.k.a 'Hari Raya'. and today i am celebrating my 20th burfday!! gagaga i got tonnes of wishes from my mates through sms perhaps.

it just a simple random day wer i just go to the mall wit my beastie n we breaking our fast at Grand Canyon Cafe where she treats me. Awghh

I said thanks to her.. for the threat.. She spends almost 50 bucks seyh for the delicacies we had in the Canyon Cafe!

I craving some brownies and Mousse Mango Cake too from secret recipe first appetizer bcos the services is soo sucks and late.. Anyway yea thatz for my own Burfday Cake and on my own money too... But its rainy perhaps that day! I driving my dad's car to North. And we chill until the night.

wHEN There so much Luv in ur heartz n where the heLL the hatez comes From...

Disclaimer:
(Dear frenz, foes or readers, the entry u about to read is actually not be written by skyeller but its courtesy of syazwan who is my mate..I give him chance to share and enlightened what is actual inside his thought regards to the smudge issue happened at recent.. happy reading his..)

finally berjaya jugak i dpt karang blog untuk diri i eventhough dis is not frm my own account but wat to do terpaksa buat loan blog org untuk satu entry special nir......nasib baik my frenz bg space kat i untuk express n bare my souls to be seen by everyone....hahahha!.....actually i x nak ckp but sometimes in our life we dont have the option...ibarat ditelan mati nenek diludah mati gongong....nak x nak kene speak out jugak.....
ok heres is it actually i have a really close frenz or in other hand, i can say my "soo called bestfrenz" which is da person datz i anggap mcm my brother coz i never have such a wonderful n most kindly frenz on earth like dis guys coz he soo kind n blanjer i mamam smtimes,tmpng kan i kete,bg mp4 for my beday..besh nyer.....speechless!! coz my sibling pun x der bg i smpai camtur n i rasa bertuah since kenal dia dr part 3 ...... n byk lgi lah smpai x muat nak list kat sini.....sometimes i rasa how i wish to have a good brother like him coz i ader 2 abang betul pun tp xla sebaek die...... ): hahaha.....but these feelings turned to be different specially dis sems.....yelah org ader ckp "people change in juz a second"....n sedar x sedar dah almost 2 months i x ckp ngan dia....coz he so fucking EGO n i never meet such an egoistic person as much as dis guy.......but x kisah lah maybe his personality.....he tend to keep silence n alienated himself.....

all da issues started since kes adegan tumpah menumpah air kelapa....yeah for some people might think how cruel n x sedar dirinyer budak nir..dah lah tmpng die pastu wat masalah lg mcm x kenal budi plak rasenye. BUT "people shud knw.. everything happens must come with a good reason "we cannot simply judge people by accusing her or him jus like datz..ni lah org melayu suker dgr satu pihak jer.....i knw im not rich n i cant give any luxury to my frenz but what i bleh bg is just cheer them up n heart....n i knw i bkn angel mcm dis guy yg orng puja2 sgt but what to do im just being honest n i x suker hipokrit..n x semestinyer orng yg keep silence,pendiam baik.n orng yg loud like me always da bad one..for me dat was totally rubbish n jgn lah asik pndang negatif je coz for me i never pndang orng tur negatif coz setiap orng ader baik buruk.actually dis issue involving me n dis guy only but da STOOOOOpid thing is bley ramai plak menjelmanye watak2 antagonis yg masuk tetibe......dah mcm drama sampah murahan samarinda plak......hahahahah....tur yg i x phm tur......n da BIG question mark is why dis guy keep silence n x mo express aper dia simpan n sakit hati dekat i???? n da sad part is how cud he told all his bestfriend (fyi me pon pena jdk bestfren die) bad things about me...?? oh god i never told anyone about him.... WTFFF men? the points is who suffer the most severe fuckin pain?? is it him or me???

hello,im not god dat knows what people feel n ape yg terbuku kat hati orng tur......but lame2 i tgok die now i knw... he's probably thinking that i'm da reason for all diz.. i lah the evil, liability, and punca for all masalah berlaku kat die.. *sigh* c'mon mmg the truth is hurt, but for him knpe susah sgt dia nak dtg jmpe i, sit one table, face to face, hati ke hati confronting me or whatever shit... kalu die ckp tros ape die x puas hati kat i kan senang, xde adegan tarik2 muke. adegan sindir menyindir, adegan tambahan pelakon watak backstabber dlm drama bodo x berkesudahan ni. conclusionnye everything is simple but u r da one who makes it more complex, dramatic and annoying!!

yeah...i can see dat or maybe dat the best ending for me n him kot........i guess.......but x kisah lah coz for me im always give n take n if da other person x nak take, x gune jgk.......if he think his life so misery .....think again?!?! maner ader orng happy jer memanjang.....n please stop praise urself like u so kind n kne backstabbed by ur so good frenz like me.......coz u also not perfect n also hurt people feeling xdela nak kate i ni perfect gak but sometimes i also a pusher and admit my mistake and say sorry..i admit gak sometimes i outspoken too much but i just be me.. take it or leave it la kalu ade somethg yg u terasa ngan words come out from diz mouth just speak it out coz im not like them yg juz see ur fault and they do nothing to fix it......coz kalau x der orng tegur kesalahan kiter, kiter x th ape salah kiter kan.....so,think about datz.......

u guys also bleh tegur i if im wrong but with appropriate manner lah bkn dgn cara mengaibkan.. but paling penting is... we can be ego but dont be hamba ego n for me im so so so sorry if it hurt anyone feeling n dis guy feeling coz im juz luv my frenz so much as i luv myself...

so readers, cube u pk sejenak .....

kesian kan, bila orang tu tak reti nak bersyukur.

kesian kan, kalau kau asyik nak tunggu orang je yang pampered kau.

kesian kan, bila kau asyik tunggu, tak buat apa, pastu pandai pulak tu nak merungut.
kesian kan, bila kerja kau merungut je.

kesian kan, bila kau asyik mintak orang len kesian dengan kau.

kesian kan, bila memang salah kau, kau tunding jari kat orang lain, kau maki orang tu, kau salah kan orang tu.

kesian kan, bila kau tak sedar yang ada orang sayang kat kau, tapi kau tak nampak sebab kau nak orang lain sayang kau, bukan aku.

kesian kan, bila kau nak semua mata memandang kat kau kan.

kesian kan, bila benda yang kau nak, elok dah ada depan mata. tapi, hish. egonye.
kau tak nak sebab kau rasa benda tu tak cukup bagus.

kesian kan, bila kau asyik menangis padahal takda apa buruk, tragedi pun yang
berlaku cuma kau rasa dengan nangis berduyun duyun orang datang lekat dengan kau.

kesian kan, bila kau nak sorang sorang layan kau macam anak raja.

kesian kan, bila aku asyik kena marah dengan kau kan?

kesian kan, bila kawan kau dok asyik kutuk aku sebab kau.

kesian kan, bila aku back up kau, tapi kau buat tak endah kat aku.

kesian kan, bila apa segala benda yang aku buat, kau buat bodoh, pandang sebelah
mata. sebab kau rasa kau boleh buat lagi hebat dari aku.

kesian kan, tiap kali aku nak kata semangat, kau buat macam nak tak nak cakap dengan aku. bila orang lain, dok mintak nasihat pasal pape, fui.. laju kau kasi nasihat berduyun duyun.

kesian kan, bila kau menangis, aku ada kat sebelah aku dengar apa kau nak cakap. tapi bila gembira, muka aku pun kau tak ingat

kesian kan, bila kau rasa macam dunia ni semua orang duduk cakap pasal kau.

kesian kan, bila kau asyik bergantung dengan issue yang tak pernah wujud sebab nak pertahankan diri kau.

kesian kan, bila kau asyik menyendiri tapi kau x fikir bile kau buat mcm tu byk pihak terasa.

kesian kan, bila kau tak dapat nak sesuaikan diri kau.

yang paling kesian sekali, bila benda yang kau nak selama ni ada betul depan mata kau, tapi kau tolak. tapi kau kejar benda yang kau tak akan nampak langsung.


smtimes when we so hatez dat person,we dunnow coz in da end orng yg kiter benci n x suke 2la yg will help us but sometimes orng yg kiter anggap kawan kiter,juz a second they dump us.......so,think about it....."when there so much luv in ur heart n where the hell da hatez come from"......from mother taresa.....

Come Septermber

Sigma table 16,
Mon Sept, 19th
1210

september is here, readily available for me to complete the missions and task given, aye?? what mission?!?! no its ramadhan month.. its time luh!! to fasting and to be good not evil..
cos evils were tied up.. ehehehe
so when ramadhan coming the most i thing like about it is makan!!!!

The same person you see

innocent
softskin

lush

fierce

I miss u fucking much!!

Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.

"Awwwgh i need u la BODOH !! "

currently mood at *suckish*

Frolly

i have not updated my blog since my last post about the so so controversials entry! if u are my loyal readers i am zillion times to wish u thank you and thank you again and again and again..
when i didnt get chance to update it, it ended up by me to becoming a bit frolly.
Dude i am so sorry cos at that moment i am too damn busy! handling assignment, presentation, and stuff and there is nothing to blogging about..till then i have story and stuff needed to share...For some reason this is actually i will do to release myself by writing or blogging. it is kinda good therapy to do when the time my life is seized up with shit!

I love to share about temptation i face on this semester. Challenges also on how i exceeded spent my money while the recent mid term break is on!

i been upside and downside across the country where i still dont taste a fully enough sleep since the break had started and until now.. *sigh* ok when i travelled to these places of course it requires money to transmit me to these places, home to stay and also foods to eat. Plus if my eyes can sneer to new clothes or stuff displayed at the shopping mall. I really couldn't help myself to control my wants to look at it, survey and test then buy!!! Look because during the time i went to KL i spent almost RMXXX.00 and back home with full hand of shopping bag and my mom was nagging a lot as soon i step at the door.


yes u are right..!! I took loan from PTPTN beside an addition cash that i received from my parents per month. Do u still thinking it enough for me to survive in here? the answer is definitely not sure. it depends on how i manage the outflow of my cash. the method is something that really2 should've practice!
*sigh* what if one day i find out where there is no single cent inside my saving account? i have to be a begger and begging some money from the public just only to fill up my stomach.
now THAT what i'm really scared if it'll happens to me one day.

ok too damn well explanation (penat dah ni) i hope u guys understand. i really dont bother bout what shit i murmur this time.

later on. Ends

bye bye old things!

its time for me to say bye2 to my previous handphone which helped me a lot since i was entering UiTM!!! the phone that always been rejected by my fellow mates and disrespected by other grunge is actually gave tonnes of memories that i cant ever forget..

when i look at those pictures i'd taken, (got VGA camera lol!)
the fm radio enhanced by the dolby digital sounds flavor *whoaaa* hatok mu!
these collected meaningful messages i saved inside my text messages folder,
beautiful notes from the heart (curahan rasa x tau knape), diaries, videos
paling xley belah the internal memory only 4MB. but still the price at that time was quite expensive as if its only a 2nd handphone!


in fact at the time i wanted to buy.. i used my own money without any deed from other 'orang' money! so no matter what jerk comes out from other bitches and ass holes mouth i still proud with my phone because it did entertained my life fucking well.

the morale actually i want to say is.. if anybody wanted to buy this special phone u are pleased to contact me!!! while stock last!

Don fuck wit Skeez!!

sum p'ple call me that i am too flirty with the balls.....

lol.. I dont giv any damn and shit...

commitin diz cud be a reckless issues...

but how do i care.. if i aint bother any one of these junkie's life..

hahaha..

sometime true i cud be the worst bitch in front of you..

and sometime it also true that i didn't pretend to become the goddess of angel that god create inside of me..

i still have a few good friends come and go that still accept me whoever i was and still share their story and feeling ..

its not like what tempation and dramas that all the bitches out there think!!

well heres are new mates that i knew at the last 3 days....

they're FUCKINNN awesome and fun same time as even its very awhile meet them!!!!




lol.. totally miss to slacking out with them again ....

xoxo

hrmmmm..

mmmm....

sy nak sangat baju ni....

so 29hb Sept nanti....

genap b'day sy yang ke-20

make sure korang carik sampai dapat tau!!!!!

bungkus lek lok..

wrap ngan ribbon skali

and kasik kat sy..

*tadaaaa*

my new layout...

hahahahaha....


" fucking retarded! "

Little Miss Obsessive...

whatt in a butt...!! get her latest album la then dgr all her songs. my favo is LMO. she's rather hotter than kakak die si Jessica sampah blonde murahan x gune tu!!! *BITCH*

im her whore uhhh ayayayaya u talking way too much..... *whatt is that what u got to say!!!*

Sheeesshh!!!!

I am sitting at sigma lab, table 31 apparently in IS class..

whoaaa why can i post da new entry cosz right away da lect. still refuse to start the class bcosz of da lateness and embroidery of here student to submit speckless assesment given.



yeah.. zura and iera in front of me..

and we chat about food food fooodsssss...

*sigh*

as always i excited to talk about food..



here..

i listed da various scrumptious saviour that u can try during ur lunch hour !!!

my always favo.. *geek*

nasi putih 1 plate
ayam kari amek drumstick part
peparu masak sambal 3 ketol
hati goreng kunyit masak basah2 cket
and lastly sirap campur cincau ais = "sichAU"...

well thats it
makan time...
so mencekik la eh!!!

T.G.I.F

hey disz cud be my first fully campuran malay version entry so balls and bitches read it malay-ly tau..!!

It was friday...
*upst..*

jumaat ari tu.. i was about on boarded dalam keter faris...
kelas HR pun abis awal dat day.. soo balek ar umah .. as usual sit at the back next to epul..
i was day dreaming then put my sight outfront.

nampak sgt pokok2 sekeliling tu tga berbuah heavenly... almost to each of the house their tree coloured with significantly fruits.. it was pleasant view..

in my mind what i thought is.. how can i grab all the fruits and campak dlm mulut..
tonnes...tons..tonness of rambutan.. red or yellow u choose..!

i pun buknlarh a rambutan lover whatsoever shit pun..

but tho.. i still <3>

owh.... *sigh*

dah pass by jln kampung br ar sampai kat area bandar pulak.. jammed x hingat ek walau segamat je...
i pun panas la time dalam kete tu.. the weather ok just me rase cam melekit semacam...

well it is the situation i confront everyday ever since started this semester in herela.. segamat.

:..i cant wait mother to leave..:

bile nak abes? pasni nak wat ape? amek course ape? whatever shit...
lom decide lg...

ntahla lots of thingss rotting dalam my palotak i now..hmm it just no time to execute. masa yg jdk penentu untuk sumer..sumerr..sumerr ni *blink*

hell yess..!!!! wtffffffff ppppffftttttttt stilll x tau lg...!!!

time tga berangan2 dlm keter tu kan then sampai ar kat signboard bandr putra... so keter myvi faris pun belok lar .. so jauh kan jarak umah i ni nak ulang alik g uitm segamat tuh...

*kenapela u pilih nak tinggal umah tu ha..???*
ntah i jawab psl..:
-kat umah tu i ley menyanyi memekik melolong anytime puas2 n org xley marah .
-kat umah tu i leh guling2 kat tilam pam angin epul petang2 sambil tgok cite ezora.
-kat umah tu i bleh chekchor dgn resident area situ @pun bebudak kolej komuniti ker hmmm.
-kat umah tu i ley potong2 bawang, goreng kentang masak pape i nak anytime if i rase nak mencekik..
-& paling penting kat umah tu ade 3 bilik air so xde masalah kalau i nak bersauna+berjimba bape lame i nak kat dlm tu xde sape leh halang cam kat kolej asek xde air jah!!!!

itu jekla kot..

tp macam2 masalah datang now!!!
but still
T.G.I.F = thank god its friday hari di mana i dpt sembahyang jumaat, n got blessing from god to what he gives to me..
blesssinggggg...

untitled..

I was pretty happy when finally had achieved my financial target for about two consecutive months.
Well after look at the global finance crisis happened in the recent n da incremental rate of inflation for living cost.
It somehow gave unconciousness to spend.
In surveys after the hugh leap of oil price everything in our consumption is affected. Therefore there is no good news after the increasement whenever it causes war of *price killer*
Yea needless to say so that everybody need the modesty to conrol those outrage bargains..
I know it may allow boredom but in courtesy it aways surplus n will stabilize the floten purchasing power.. *masok natang economy jadah la plak*.
Anyhow stop pursuing ur exprapriate of lifestyle in fact prioritze necessity dat creats what importants come first.
Its been good to say diz..

ma name is **skyeller**

have a gud day.. ;)

xoxo miss bedingfield!!!!

true...actually i dun recognized the singer before but after i heard some of her songs from radio...

menn the track wuszz fuckin' awesome....!!!!

so i started searching who's just sing that song and where i can download em..??? ehe...

i'm not a big fan of her though.. but now!!! yeahhh her voice admires me a lot and certain songs pumped me upp with powerful goddess lyrics..

as i wasnt trying to promote her... but trust me these two are my favo songs..

i know these singles not the latest one.. but still i liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike...!!

u read da above lyrics

I Bruise Easily

My skin is like a map

Of where my heart has been

And I cant hide the marks

Its not a negative thing

So I let down my guard

Drop my defences down by my clothes

I'm learning to fall

With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily

So be gentle when u handle me

Theres a mark you leave

Like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily

Cant stratch the surface

Without moving me underneath

I bruise easily

I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints

On a glass of wine

Do you know you're leaving them

All over this heart of mine too

But if I never take this leap of faith

I'll never know

So im learning to fall

With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily

So be gentle when u handle me

Theres a mark you leave

Like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily

Cant stratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily

I bruise easily

Anyone wo can touch you
Can hurt you or heal u
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

I bruise easily

So be gentle when u handle me

Theres a mark you leave

Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant stratch the surface

Without moving me underneath

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I bruise easily

I bruise easily

p/s :A fabulous video! The lyrics and melody are perfect. Natasha's definitely a really gifted person. Her voice touches the heart! Brilliant! Why didn't i watched it before? Isnt it loooovelyy words.. iz it?

another song that i admit is lush, pure and soulful.....

enjoy every lil bite of da ear indulge..

lets sing together while in the bed

Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though

'cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do

You're not easy to find

Is it possible, Mr. Loveable

Is already in my life?

Right in front of me

Or maybe you're in disguise

[Chorus]

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end

How do I find the perfect fit

There's enough for everyone

But I'm still waiting in line

[Chorus]

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

[Bridge]

Most relationships seem so transitory

They're all good but not the permanent one

[Chorus]

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why

I'm on my ownIf there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

p/s: really good, i like it this song is beautiful .. sing until u r teary eyed ;P

something about something...

Some p'ple ask me, how my life has been while the on going semester break is at still?
not much i said, just slacking at home and being a good son.. Good son???
Jeez..!!!
haha i'm gettin stress u know especially when my internet connection cannot be accessed on...
it escalates my condition here tho.. Ahh..! why people??
aint nobody paying the bill?
Hoho darn as i was so bored... ok but the way to diminish the unfininsh dullness alone iz only to do something that can make me frenzy n gonna rejuvenate my day.. like going outside to burst the ideas n see the citizen in the city..
I did went out these last couple days.. Chill with my fewer mates.. Lepaking somewhere, owh when i wanted to remember bout what was really going on between me n diz close fren.. It was a silly and controversial talk...


Diz one is crazy u know.. it had happened around 0430 pm in da evening at Alif Restaurant which near to my house.. it was me and him..we sat in the chair and started 2 bable around. At 1st the topic people around us then regarding to it linkaged with the human traficking issue..
err i dun even sure what the topic all about..
As until he started the sassy conversation

" do u knoe something??"
" knowin what??"
" err..it juz a matter i dun knoe how to start it.."
" tell me.. what is it??"
" it hard u knoe.."

(guffaw) mane air nih?? i've just felt like there is a hiking man stuck at my throat.. thirsty..
then (ow just speak of da devil..)
after couple gulps..


" ok.. what is it??"
" it just harder then i tot 2 be honest wit u!"
" 4 god sake ***!! how hard is that until u cant even tell me da thing!!"
He just lazing around like an offencer.. " i'm afraid to tell u it just like.. uh hell yeah!"
" ow hell you! how wud i know if u yet not telling me" I grinned to him
" ok. i tell u that i'd crushed to someone.."
Loh.. the thing is dat, " IS DAT it??? then wat the big deal u afraid of??"
" I know, wait..But the thing is.."
" Is she knew bout it?"
" datz it.. da problem is there isn't a she, look ky i felt in love with a guy.."
wwhhaat??? i gawped he got me until my eyeball spinning.."are you fuckin serious??"
" ok calm down, cos ur loud voice make everybody here stund too.."
" sessoryy..u've got to be kidding me wit ur statement shit??"
" i dun knoe, irregardless bcos he just so gentle, kind and cute.."
" OMFG.. i didn't realize dat u are a gaymen. Becoss uhhh look at u.. U aren't even suppose to look like me ok...?? and i tot u are normal straight guy from your feature..!!"
He just blurp his drink. " Look! i bare my soul to u hopin that u can understand my situation.."
" i'm sory dude, seriously how u knoe him?"
" from myspace, and we had chatted couple times.."
" really..trust me myspace is all lie, don be too fool to trust anything that u don even sure have both of u met up?"
" Ermmm.. nop" His eyes glanced at a guy that walkthrough the pathway " look at that guy" his arm nudged at mine.
" whats da matter with that guy?"
" he's soo cute!"
" euwwlah is he ur type?"
" sort off.. auchh u can be as simply as that! u aint even sure if he were straight or bi-"
" i dun bother k. nowadays men looking like dat is an ultimate goddesss beast that have orientation confusion problem..."
" ok.. ky what shud i do now?"
" hmm, u are a desperate asshole aren't u?"
" what!!!!!" he gawped
" ehe.. ok what is exactly u looking for? love or lust?"
" mothaf***** question.. err i say both!"
" then i will say.. if u want a love find a girl, and if u want to make a sex find a girl also but use protection.."
" what are u been thinking??? OMG are make a fun of me??"
" i'm serious dude, find somebody from opposite gender.. u know how dangerous and sinful it was by having an abnormal sex affair like dat?"
" u just dun even understand what i feel. u just can say whatever u like! OK." He lighten up his cigarette.. " look all i really want from him is just only his attention.."
" but u told me u wanted to make sex with him??"
" are u crazzyyy?? of course not.. i still realize that it was so wrong!"
" then why u shud date with him?"
" gosh.. i dated him becos we're friends.. is it an offence guy dated with guy huh???"
i'm getting screwed with all his beneath expalanation.." lol u r soo defensive!"
" c'mon ky.. dun get serious with diz my expectation toward him is just only as a friend dat i loves, dat he cares bout me! it wont be like the disgusting thinking like what u been thinking."
" ok u win, and i say whatever, i never been a gay u shud ask a help from gays that understand u and ur situation.."
hes standing in front of me " look i gotta go!!"
" wait where are u going?"
" actually, he's waiting me at the bus stand rite now.."
" whatt!! Ow then who's then going to pay the drinks?"
" err.. Here 5 bucks.. i treat u for giving me such a wonderful sermon!"
" hey.. Ok tq.. But be careful with him yah!'
well he's so eager to meet that guy and left me in such hurry. After paid i followed him silently to see them.. from the far sight i cud watch they both were having an awkward conversation.. OMG..
that guy was the one who across the road while we were drinking before.. soon after that the bus came n they dissapeared.. to where da hell are they going???